There was a light out there. Then I walked and tried to find it out. It was a simple one. The kid was playing with it. He seemed so happy. He was alone and enjoyed it on his own. He couldn’t hear me. He laughed out loud over and over again. I saw his eyes. The sincerity was so real on them. The magical feeling came to me by looking at him.
Suddenly he took my hand. I was surprised. “Do you wanna play with me?” he said. I smiled, then he gave me the other light. “I feel lonely, don’t you know that? That was why I asked you to be with me,” he said again.
Oh, dear. But he seemed ok. How could I believe in him? “Do you feel what I feel?” he asked, “I looked at the other side ‘coz I felt the pain all of the sudden”.
“Well, I do sometimes. As human being we’re not only need God, but also someone to share for convincing us that we’re not alone. I wonder why you can be happy like this and laughed out loud, but the other side you feel lonely,” I said.
“I’m not happy. I just tried to laugh. Then, when I did it, you were coming. So, I felt better.
"What’s in your mind? Don’t you feel good?”
“I don’t know. Though I know that the rainbow will come after it was raining like cat and dog, but it was not easy for me to hear the thunder. I felt cold and so scared”.
“Don’t you have a special one?”
“I do. But he’s so far away. I wonder when I can hug him, while the tears hard to be replaced by the laughter. Sometimes I really wanna get the smell of his skin. I miss him everyday. But I don’t know what to do”.
“Look, I have a coin. Which one do you wanna chose? The queen or three lions?”
“What for?”
“Just tell me”.
“The queen”. Then he played with it.
“If you got the queen, then your dreams will come true. If you got the lions, just go. Here it is!” He opened his hand. “See? The queen! You don’t have to worry. Your special one will come to you. He knows what you feel. You don’t have to feel lonely ‘coz he always in your heart, though he’s so far away”.
We got a dead air for minutes. “Hopefully,” I said.
“It’s time for me to go. Anyway, I know it from my grandma. She did it to me when I felt the whole world is gone. It was a couple years ago when my dad died. Bye”. He went and just giving me a smile. I didn’t even know his name. We never knew each other. Maybe he’s 13 years old. But he was giving me the amazing night, though it was just in 30 minutes. I saw the pain when he told me about his dad, but he tried to cheer me up by all of the silly things that he has done. Oh, I forgot something. The light. It’s his! This light helps me to get the night. The hardest time that makes me thinking bout you. You know that I really do miss you.
*especially for my lovely one, Luke Perry. It’s inspired by Evan and Jaron-The Distance.
Bandung, 22 Juni 2011
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